I’m sorry for the people that have pushed you away.
I’m sorry for the people that have told you that you’ll never amount to anything.
I’m sorry for the people that tried to shove down your issues with a “just pray about it.”
We’ve all heard that mental health is real— and it is— but I want to specifically talk about suicide with this post.
So many people are hurting in silence. They’re not satisfied with their accomplishments or who they’ve become.
They look to others to affirm and support them but no one can ever fully satisfy them so they end up feeling more worthless.
I know. I’ve been there.
Although I’ve never attempted suicide, I’ve struggled with those thoughts for years. I have my moments but I’m better now. So many people have killed themselves left and right so I’m using the platform I have to speak out about this very serious issue.
Thoughts of suicide doesn’t mean you’re weak.
Thoughts of suicide doesn’t mean you’re crazy.
I know how it is when you’re deep in it. You want someone to talk to but you don’t want to scare them. You’re lonely but you don’t want to be around anyone.
But I have a question:
When something is created, who defines what it is? —— the creator.
I honestly can’t explain in detail exactly how or when my thoughts began to improve but I will say that my thoughts have been radically changed by realizing how Jesus sees me (even if you’re not a believer, please stick with me).
Your thoughts can determine your life. If my Creator says that I’m fearfully and wonderfully made, then I have to start believing that for myself. If I’m still here, alive and breathing on this earth, I must be worth something more than I think. No one else can convince me or love me more than I love myself.
Daily affirmations are a great tool as well. On a sticky note posted on my bathroom mirror, I have these three statements:
I am worthy of love.
I am beautiful.
I am doing the best I can.
I say these every morning when I wake so it can get into my the deep places mind and become reality for me.
Even if you’re not a believer of Christ, please know that you were made for a purpose. You belong here on this earth. There is hope on the other side of your suffering— nothing lasts forever. You have talents and gifts loaded inside of you— some that have yet to be tapped in to. You may not know exactly who but somebody needs you. We all need each other.
If you struggle with suicidal thoughts, please don’t try to battle this on your own. Whether it’s me, a hotline, or whoever, reach out to someone. We’re in this together.